Randomness of Late Night Classes

Surprisingly enough..I can keep my eyes open long enough to type out another post. Sorry it has taken me so long but welcome to my life. Boring yet extremely busy. So sitting in World Religions and Cultures at 7:25 is not as fun as it sounds. I know, really?? Not a ball of joy?? NOT.

We are watching a movie on Confuciamism, which admittedly is quite interesting. I know, I know. Nerdy right? Anyways sitting by myself also not fun but also has its advantages. I can spread my shit as far as I want. Taking up three chairs right now, and proud of it. lol. Tomorrow is Halloween. Super Excited! It has always been one of my favourite times of year. List of favourite halloween costumes I have worn:

1. Clown at age one... seen pictures. Oh dear lord the make-up
2. Batman... age four give me a break
3. Yellow Power Ranger... she was always the hottest (
4. Pocahontas... damn sister demanded to be the same thing that year. So not cute
5. Sailor Mars... oh hot damn
6. Tinkerbell (this year)
   

List of costumes will be before die

1. Any two-person animal (donkey preferrably)
2. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle
3. Sexy Librarian (could pull this off now, but will wait)
4. Anything clever, not always stereo-typical

Favourite Songs Right Now

I wanted to share with everyone what is going through my head right now...music wise (:

• Favourite Country Songs: I'm a Country Boy - Alan Jackson, All I Want to Do - Sugarland, Stealing Cinderella - Chuck Wicks
• Favourite Girly/Corny Songs: Slow Me Down - Emmy Rossum (see previous posts for lyrics) Where I stood - Missy Higgins, T Shirt - Shontelle
• Favourite Sap Song: Fall for you - Secondhand Serenade
• Favourite Dance Song: Liar Liar - Girlicious
• Favourite Dirty Dancing song (haha): Private Dancer - Danny Fernandes
• Favourite Hip-Hop Songs: Go Go Gadget Flow - Lupe Fiasco, A Millie - Lil Wayne, The Potion - Ludacris
• Favourite Funny Song: My Dick - Mickey Avalon **if you have never heard this, YOU NEED TO!
• Favourite Song that reminds me of my childhood: Wonderful - Everclear
• Favourite "Get Over Him Song": If I Were a Boy - Beyonce, Heart Songs - Weezer *This is ironic for me though (Ass sent it) LOOKING FOR SOMETHING NEW AND HARD-ISH FOR THIS SECTION...comment and leave me a suggestion!
• Favourite Oldish Hip-Hop Songs: AirForce Ones - Nelly, Baby Don't Go - Fabulous ft. T. Pain. Dem Jeans - Franchise Boys
• Favourite Old Country Songs: Guys Do It All the Time - Mindy McCreedy, If This is Austin - Blake Shelton

I probably have soo many more that I am just forgetting about but thats ok.

This is right now, as in this instant where I sit in the commonroom area at school. Basement, brand-new but smells like feet from all the people that take their shoes off because I mean it's a lounge..who wants shoes on when they are lounging? I have mine off, and unfortunately the most embarassing socks ever, but whatever. And this couch is quite uncomfortable but Im sure thats because its brand new. Its funny how sometimes the oldest, and uggliest couches are the most comfortable? Although not always. I have slept on my fair share of couches lately. I could become an expert. Maybe I just will.

Updates on the "Ass" Front

I hope you guys don't feel like you have to read this, that was surely not my intention. Mostly I am just venting and the odd time I like to hear what others have to say. Feel free to comment all you want guys..

So the updates: We talked on the phone today, after he called me three times and I didn't answer I figure that maybe I can get some of the answers I was hoping for last night. We talked for about half an hour about how that was a major dick move and how I feel like I don't even want to be friends anymore if he is going to just cut off all contact and say, "I don't want to talk until you don't like me anymore" Definately not fair. His excuse was that he was pretty drunk (which always seems to be a viable excuse), and he apologized (AGAIN.. I know). I used to be a sucker for him apologizing, even on msn I was weak and anything he said he just got away with. Not now thankfully, I am a little bit more dignified I'd like to believe. So I had to go and said whatever I will call you later. And after dinner and thinking it over I called him back and said that things would have to change for us to be friends first. And that there is no way thats what I want at this point in time after what you pulled last night. We talked about why he invited me in the first place and not to give into the sucker - ness..he did admit that he knews that it must be awkward for me too, and that he understands that I can't change my feelings in an instant. But I am not falling for that. He also said that he is willing to wait for me to figure out what I want so that we can be friends. I suppose I could be his friend but it would be hard. And with other things going on in my life right now I don't know what to deal with first.

I would also like some advice on this one guys..this new boy has shown a real interest in me. He's 19, really funny, lives about an hour away from here (which sucks because we never hang out) but we talk everyday too. He has kind of hinted at the fact that he wants to be physical but doesn't want a relationship. Again I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WANT. So therefore don't know how to deal with this one either. It would be nice if boys just realized that honestly girls don't actually know what we want, we may pretend to know but we have no effing clue either. I wouldn't mind being with him...in that way* But I would really like a relationship sometime in the near future. I know that "good things take time" and not to rush it but I also hate waiting around for something to come along. And as sad as it sounds Im bored with my love life. Help me, I know I probably sound CRAZY and completely on crack, but you all know me, and that is nothing new (L)

Also..thought that I would include the pic of the tat for those of you who haven't seen it.

And like I thought, I am getting another one because I liked doing it so much. My sister and I are thinking of getting something together on our foot. I want lettering, of some sort but she doesn't. We will probably take forever to decide but does anyone have any suggestions for me?

Thanks guys, love ya'll

Girly Collages..because they are fun

Boys who know they screw with your head..

So I'm pretty sure that most of the people reading this will know who I am talking about but we will refer to A.C. as the Ass from here on in. So after he asks me to stay with him for a weekend in his res I assume that maybe something is going to happen. Is that wrong for one to assume? Anyways I say yes in hopes that maybe he is finally coming to his senses after three years of my life wasted down the drain of liking him. Stupid, I know that now. So nothing happens, well stuff goes on but not between me and him, which was supposed to be happenning. He kisses a random, no sorry he makes-out with a random right infront of me. After I told her that she could go for it because nothing is going to happen, she says no I think he likes you. Like he has been talking about you all night. BULLSHIT. Sorry for the rude terms, in some places they are needed. And so after Ass spends half an hour telling me how much he hates her, strangely enough they are making out. Its not so much the fact that he kissed her that makes me mad, its the fact that right after it was done the apologies start. "I'm sorry, I don't know why I did it, I didn't even want to, She came onto me first." Likely story...I know. So whatever I figure that maybe its true, wrong assumption! He spends the entire night telling me about the other stuff they did, as if seeing them kissing wasn't weird enough. I have to hear about how he got his first bj, and hj behind a church in the bush. Sorry to be so blunt about it, but in this context there is no other way to be. That concludes the bitching about that weekend. Now for last night... I know that msn is overrated, and that intense and serious conversations should not be had over the internet but there was no other way to do it at 2 in the morning. So he says, "I hear you still like me, at least thats what you said while you were here" "Yeah, I guess but I kind of like this other guy too (which is not a lie)" "Well I don't think we can be friends if you like me, it's too akward" LIKE IT ISN'T AWKWARD FOR ME JACKASS, IM THE ONE WHO HAS TO SUFFER WITH JUST BEING FRIENDS...of course I didn't say that but I said "Not to be rude but its not like I want to like you anymore, actually its fucking with my head to the point that I really wish I didnt" And like every boy (sorry to generalize) thinks he says "So don't" "It's not like I can turn off my feelings and change them like the snap of my fingers, but if I could believe me, I would." "Ok well I'm leaving and I don't want to talk to you until you can tell me that you don't like me anymore" If he wanted to stay friends and it not be awkward or weird that was the worst way to do it in my opinion. So he signs off or blocks me, the later being more obvious. And I text him (being a really immature thing to do) saying I can't stand you, is that what you want to hear. There is no way that I can get over you unless you give me closure, and by getting that we both need to explain shit. And he texts back and says Im sorry I dont want to talk until you don't like me. And I said ok well that isn't going to help me and I didn't know our friendship meant that much to you that you would wait. And he says im going to sleep don't text back unless you can tell me that you don't like me anymore. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
So I didn't text back and don't really want to talk to him anymore. I didn't think that I could change my feelings to quickly but I guess I can. And I think liking him is officially over (HOPEFULLY) and that I wouldn't care to be his friend now anyways. Help me ladies. I have no idea what to do!

Slow Me Down -Lyrics

Slow Me Down Lyrics – Emmy Rossum

Rushing and racing and running in circles

Moving so fast I'm forgetting my purpose

Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning

Getting nowhere

My head and my heart are colliding chaotic

Pace of the world I just wish I could stop it

Try to appear like I've got it together

I'm falling apart

Save me

Somebody take my hand and lead me

Slow me down

Don't let love pass me by

Just show me how

Cause I'm ready to fall

Slow me down

Don't let me live a lie

Before my life flies by

I need you to slow me down

Sometimes I fear that I might disappear

In the blur of fast forward I falter again

Forgetting to breatheI need to sleep

I'm getting nowhere

All that I've missed I see in the reflection

Pass me while I wasn't paying attention

Tired of rushing, racing and running

I'm falling apart

Tell me

Oh won't you take my hand and lead me

Slow me down

Don't let love pass me by

Just show me how

Cause I'm ready to fall

Slow me down

Don't let me live a lie

Before my life flies by

I need you to slow me down

Just show me

I need you to slow me down

Slow me down

Slow me down

The noise of the world is getting me caught up

Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it

Just need to breathe

Somebody please

Slow me down

First Ever Blog

So this is all very new to me. I have always, always wanted to write a blog of my own ever since I saw Cinderella Story, I know that's sad. But I guess whatever gets me to write is a good thing. I want to write forever. Being published is a chance but a highly unlikely one, I mean what normal person actually gets published? Anyways it would be nice but its not the reason why I write. People ask me, "what is the point in writing if you aren't planning on doing anything with it?" Obviously its not for anyone else but me. And I feel if I'm writing, I am doing something. It has always been a dream to publish a romance novel. Also sounds pretty sad I suppose, but they have everything I want to read in a book, and also write. I started university this year (majoring in english with hopes of being an elementary school teacher and writer on the side) and although I am loving it, the freedom, the experience, I miss home. So much... My friends build up my life and my sister and my mom are the cherries on top. This blog is for me, but also for them. Love to all!