So I'm pretty sure that most of the people reading this will know who I am talking about but we will refer to A.C. as the Ass from here on in. So after he asks me to stay with him for a weekend in his res I assume that maybe something is going to happen. Is that wrong for one to assume? Anyways I say yes in hopes that maybe he is finally coming to his senses after three years of my life wasted down the drain of liking him. Stupid, I know that now. So nothing happens, well stuff goes on but not between me and him, which was supposed to be happenning. He kisses a random, no sorry he makes-out with a random right infront of me. After I told her that she could go for it because nothing is going to happen, she says no I think he likes you. Like he has been talking about you all night. BULLSHIT. Sorry for the rude terms, in some places they are needed. And so after Ass spends half an hour telling me how much he hates her, strangely enough they are making out. Its not so much the fact that he kissed her that makes me mad, its the fact that right after it was done the apologies start. "I'm sorry, I don't know why I did it, I didn't even want to, She came onto me first." Likely story...I know. So whatever I figure that maybe its true, wrong assumption! He spends the entire night telling me about the other stuff they did, as if seeing them kissing wasn't weird enough. I have to hear about how he got his first bj, and hj behind a church in the bush. Sorry to be so blunt about it, but in this context there is no other way to be. That concludes the bitching about that weekend. Now for last night... I know that msn is overrated, and that intense and serious conversations should not be had over the internet but there was no other way to do it at 2 in the morning. So he says, "I hear you still like me, at least thats what you said while you were here" "Yeah, I guess but I kind of like this other guy too (which is not a lie)" "Well I don't think we can be friends if you like me, it's too akward" LIKE IT ISN'T AWKWARD FOR ME JACKASS, IM THE ONE WHO HAS TO SUFFER WITH JUST BEING FRIENDS...of course I didn't say that but I said "Not to be rude but its not like I want to like you anymore, actually its fucking with my head to the point that I really wish I didnt" And like every boy (sorry to generalize) thinks he says "So don't" "It's not like I can turn off my feelings and change them like the snap of my fingers, but if I could believe me, I would." "Ok well I'm leaving and I don't want to talk to you until you can tell me that you don't like me anymore" If he wanted to stay friends and it not be awkward or weird that was the worst way to do it in my opinion. So he signs off or blocks me, the later being more obvious. And I text him (being a really immature thing to do) saying I can't stand you, is that what you want to hear. There is no way that I can get over you unless you give me closure, and by getting that we both need to explain shit. And he texts back and says Im sorry I dont want to talk until you don't like me. And I said ok well that isn't going to help me and I didn't know our friendship meant that much to you that you would wait. And he says im going to sleep don't text back unless you can tell me that you don't like me anymore. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
So I didn't text back and don't really want to talk to him anymore. I didn't think that I could change my feelings to quickly but I guess I can. And I think liking him is officially over (HOPEFULLY) and that I wouldn't care to be his friend now anyways. Help me ladies. I have no idea what to do!
Sunday, October 26, 2008
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4 comments:
holyy crap toria.
so please tell me you can at least very easily think less of him now? which might help you not like him anymore? also can't believe that he admitted to the bj and hj being his first.
I know..and yes I think a lot less of him now. Finally something that can change my mind that quickly. Anyways he is calling constantly now so I might as well explain shit to him.
youre nicer then me.
"i'd be like excuse me? why are you calling me? i might not like you anymore but thats more of a reason why i wouldnt want to talk to you"
yeah we talked on the phone for a while..and I actually got an explanation which was nice. I told him that I don't think I even want to be his friend after what he said last night but I think that he still wants to. He says hes willing to wait and to give me the space I need for us to be friends again. We will see, I told him that I really had to figure a lot of stuff out first. And that I would let him know. So we will see how that goes.
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