So the updates: We talked on the phone today, after he called me three times and I didn't answer I figure that maybe I can get some of the answers I was hoping for last night. We talked for about half an hour about how that was a major dick move and how I feel like I don't even want to be friends anymore if he is going to just cut off all contact and say, "I don't want to talk until you don't like me anymore" Definately not fair. His excuse was that he was pretty drunk (which always seems to be a viable excuse), and he apologized (AGAIN.. I know). I used to be a sucker for him apologizing, even on msn I was weak and anything he said he just got away with. Not now thankfully, I am a little bit more dignified I'd like to believe. So I had to go and said whatever I will call you later. And after dinner and thinking it over I called him back and said that things would have to change for us to be friends first. And that there is no way thats what I want at this point in time after what you pulled last night. We talked about why he invited me in the first place and not to give into the sucker - ness..he did admit that he knews that it must be awkward for me too, and that he understands that I can't change my feelings in an instant. But I am not falling for that. He also said that he is willing to wait for me to figure out what I want so that we can be friends. I suppose I could be his friend but it would be hard. And with other things going on in my life right now I don't know what to deal with first.
I would also like some advice on this one guys..this new boy has shown a real interest in me. He's 19, really funny, lives about an hour away from here (which sucks because we never hang out) but we talk everyday too. He has kind of hinted at the fact that he wants to be physical but doesn't want a relationship. Again I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WANT. So therefore don't know how to deal with this one either. It would be nice if boys just realized that honestly girls don't actually know what we want, we may pretend to know but we have no effing clue either. I wouldn't mind being with him...in that way* But I would really like a relationship sometime in the near future. I know that "good things take time" and not to rush it but I also hate waiting around for something to come along. And as sad as it sounds Im bored with my love life. Help me, I know I probably sound CRAZY and completely on crack, but you all know me, and that is nothing new (L)
Also..thought that I would include the pic of the tat for those of you who haven't seen it.
And like I thought, I am getting another one because I liked doing it so much. My sister and I are thinking of getting something together on our foot. I want lettering, of some sort but she doesn't. We will probably take forever to decide but does anyone have any suggestions for me?
Thanks guys, love ya'll
4 comments:
vic, you know you're the type of gal who wouldn't want to strictly fool around with someone you wanted to date... it'd just make it harder to get over him (no worries, its not an insult - im the same type of girl :P)
tats are addicting eh? weirdly enough i was thinking about it before bed lol i've wanted my second for a year now, but i havent been sure enough for what i want... plus, i want it around my ankle, and im effing terrified about the pain (i know, i know, the spine but not the ankle? thing is it was so long ago i dont remember how much it hurt)
and this ends the comment that looks more like a blog post :) love ya!
haha oh lady I miss you. And Yeah chels and I were thinking that we would get the words My Baby with a little heart right underneath or baby toes..like still on the top but she has changed her mind now..
So we are still thinking. And yes they are strangely addictive. Not good for someone like me with a relatively weak personality lol.
And you're right. I don't really want to just fool around with him and would hurt myself if thats all that happenned when I wanted a relationship.
well no stealing,
but my current tat idea is "my thoughts create my world" in script around my ankle with a small heart at the end/beginning (however you want to look at it)
i really wanted a vine w/ daisies before or a daisy with a butterfly (for my mom) but i wasnt sure so i didnt rush out and do it (thankfully. because i really like this other idea)
what do you think?? (oh, and have you checked my blog?)
*** and if you look at my blog and it looks like crap (as in, not black with a daisy and 4 squares - youll know what i mean) it means that me/cal are still trying to make it go from the old blogger version (templates) to the new blogger version (layouts) since all my code is from the old version
:)
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